Blog closed

Dear loved and unloved ones.

I will be permanently closing down my blog for good.
Thanks the small handful of readers.

This message will be here for a while till i backup my old memories and will delete.

Do take care.

Crystal Apple

I remembered years ago there was this Jap Series called Love Generation.
A mushy love story type, cannot stand it but I loved the sound track.
I have managed to translate one line... The heart is similar to the crystal apple, once broken, though can mend, will leave imperfection.
Its very windy here tonight... love the smell of the salt in the sea and sands under my feet. Been so long since I like to feel this type of solitude.
Listening to songs from my player and updating my blog... feels like emotion relished all over again in OZ.

Dedicate the first song to Char, hope she will enjoy...

Hazel. Please get well soon

It hit us bad when one of friends and relatives is suddenly taken ill for the worse. This happened to my friend Hazel from my school.
She is now in ICU At TTSH, so please people, Pray for her recovery.

My friend is suffering from an unknown virus infection. From her initial symptoms, fever, kidney failure, brain infection, I suspected it is Hanta virus, but this is not common in Singapore and though she had a rat, they are not known resrvoir for Hanta Viruses. Anyway, From those conditions, If anyone know what may be the virus or cause, please let me know as she is in EXTREMELY CRITICAL CONDITION.

I know I am supposed to update IIDX Gold LE Complete, but I feel that her condition is more important. Next time IIDX Fans...

Panda Chem

China Govt Bashing

This post is dedicated to China Bashing – I mean the government

I believe that many in the world are unhappy that the Olympic games went to China.
Myself being a Singaporean Chinese feels that the China government does not make an effort to enforce the peace in the Tibet region. By enforcing I mean negiotations with the Dalai Lama, and not stopping riots.

The egoistic China government has hidden so many things from the world. The bird flu incident for example, if not for the lack of information, the situation may be resolved earlier. People from all over the world have potested by halting the olympic torch. They are not sport haters, but in fact freedom fighters. I praise them for taking the valient effort in trying to stop the torch reaching China to commence the games.
The Olympic games does not have any meaning anymore, its just a venue for sportsmen/women to show their muscles. It brings a boom in economy for the host country. It does not have any signifinance. Sports people, I am sorry to bash on your beloved olympics, but so what for honour and glory when others freedom are suppressed?

Don’t go China, you can measure your sausages on your own free time without an international crowd? SPORTMEN ARE NOT LIKE CHINA, they go for the competition and not to gain glory. You can get a job like every other person in this world, and do not need corporate sponsorships like Nike. Don’t go China, Don’t go China and FREE TIBET!!!!

In another eye sore incident, LEAVE TAIWAN ALONE! Why do you want Taiwan on the false basis of reunification. They have established their own government and a culture level much better then yours. You cannot take it and want to reclaim it as your own is it?
Narrow mind Chinese Government.

I know for these statements I will be shot and hanged if I ever landed my feet in China. For people to be informed… So be it.
I love Chinese people, I love Chinese food, I have China Chinese friends, BUT I absolutely hate their government.

Whats up recently??

Well I have achieved my IIDX goals of 500AAAs, now is currently 521.
401 Normal 96 Hypers and 10+ anothers.
Best of these is probably Himawari hyper. Wheee!!!!

I have been to DBG the other day for IIDX, saw Bryant and Jerry, and 2 pretty chicks, dunno who they are though. Anyway, when I played on the IIDX, the fucking machine is so damn oily. I dunno who did it but I hope they will not go Bishan and ruin the machine there ^_^. Anyway, all my grade averages went down by almost one, AAA becomes AA and AA becomes A... oh yah, failed a 11 song on extra stage.

Think I will post again when I get my Gold Limited COMPLETE Edition ^_^

Random IIDX AAA Pic

Near CNY post

Lets see now....

Currently I have cleaned my room - slightly...
Threw away 2 speakers from my old hi fi, my old pc (ram, HDD and CD drv removed)and a huge bags of notes from microbiology to biochemistry.

I have packed my clothes away, washed up a bit here and there. Still got more to cover tonight.

Made a big mistake in the qualifying of Bemani Top Rankers. It should be 8 per game instead of 8 per country. Dun flame me, I'm only human :p
But will encourage to join in the spirit of competition unless monetary concerns forbids it.

For IIDX, totally CMI, I really doubt in this country I can be top 8, not to mention in the whole Asia of IIDX champs. My arcade timing also sucks big time lol...
Anyway, I will concentrate on vjarmy instead, haven updated in a long time, wonder if I am still top 100 in there whahahhaa.

This morning lagi shiok, went to take cab to work, some farker in front of me stole my cab, I waved nevermind to the taxi driver, but gave a middle finger to that farking nerd.

Arcade on previous sat... went there supposedly to chiong DDR with John. KNN, have to went off halfway around 5 to do something urgent for work. Sorry John, next time will chiong with ya, give me time to lose my tummy .... Slim 10?? :P
On another note, my DM has slightly improved. From not able to play level 60 + songs before to be able to playing them now. I still have not carried out my NY resolution.

The following:

1. To reach 1k in DM - training rolling and bass...
2. To pass a 12 in IIDX - either break my fingers trying
3. To get back my DDR form - or break a leg
4. To lose weight, set 30kg for the year
5. In line with point 4, to cut down of softdrinks, fast food and sex :P wahah...
6. Healthy lifestyle, quit smoking... -_-

Anyway, Valentine's day is in the air, but its on a freaking thursday. Its ok Rain, I celebrate with you either the weekend before or after.
Guess what, I will cook for you ^_^.
I'm a excellent chef kay for those who dunno yet -_-

Addressing the problems in the arcade right now... too many relationship break down.
Luckily still got one pair going strong. All the best to Nora and Meow lol... I will always disturb u 2 when i have the chance, dun worry kay?? ^_^
What I really wanna say, from an old man's point of view, love is something you will hardly find in your teens, heck... even mature adults have problems finding it.
if not, why do people have affairs?
In teens its a simpler playing field, you have one, not good, break up, move on. For adults, its much more complicated, esp those married ones.
Instead of losing salt by crying over a done deal relationship, just smile and move on to a happier tomorrow. For those that done the forbidden act, heck la, how many ladies in this age haven lost it?

For my male mates, if the lady haven chosen you, it may not mean ya not right for her, but the time may not be now. Don't be sour, but stay positive and be focused on ur objectives in life. Love will find you in the end in the most unexpected way.
Looking at my beer belly, many of you can guess that this Panda have been struck out in love many times, but as the older old people say, cannot tahan kena burn, don't play wif fire lor :p
I moved on after some rejections, but waited for those worthy ones. Its up to an individual to handle their relationship matters. But the main key aspect is to stay positive.

Take a break...

Thinking of her

Shirlyn!!!

Boo... Everydaylovelyday

Sitting down outside the office with a ciggie in hand and a laptop on whereelse?? my lap.
Its been a quiet day, I am currently rushing through 3 meeting minutes as well as starting revision on my MGBD examination coming on the 16th. It has been very busy these few days.

My PS2 has gone bonkers, I will probably be looking at replacing it soon, as well as at the same time, replacing my lap top. Can't fufill my IIDX dream without a working console ya?

I have spoken to her again, with somewhat positive results. Hopefully will lead to a good beginning or something. To be honest, I missed the arcade scene. Playing DDR till u sweat, IIDX till fingers cramped etc.
I like to strive to be the best, but as many said... my time to shine is over. Now to move on to big boys playing field. With this I wannna add that I can return to the arcade scene anytime, but is it worth it?
Anyway, lets see how after the IIDX comp, no word from TKA yet though. Thought they wanna to promote the eamusement system. hmmm....
After exam, I will be probably hanging out at Bishan for IIDX, if not most likely home on the PS2 on distorted. Waiting for the release of Gold though, come on man, I haven passed my 9th Dan yet. CCB!!!!

Over ten days since the beginning of the new year, how I wish I can stick to my resolution. Been stresed out these days because of the stupid exams. Hopefully the stress is worth the result. Stupid Wendy kept saying I will fail. Smack her tight arse... aowwwwwwwww.

Many times I wonder have I chosen the wrong specialisation. The lecturer is not of a good calibre, and it will be a miracle if I can pass. Luck wise, have been doing okay, but will need more gd luck charms to have a better life.

Comparable to the past, I will say that times like this I was living in the frontier age where men slay beast to feed their family. Shucks.

Very random as this is my place to rant and rave about life. Everydaylovelyday is a nice song just to perk me up. 2 bad my ipod can only store 4GB worth now, so I cannot upload all the IIDX albums in. ^_^

Wonder have the conflict between 157 and tim3 been resolved, been a long time since I visited any blogs... Hopefully that our Bemani community can get together strong.
Trying to tie things together with a bunch of egoistic people can be tough sometimes, and esp if they over-emo.

I been growing up with Bemani games since its beginning, hate to see it gone down to the state that its in. Previously its like a group of people just wanting to show each other skills, now its like bengs and lians trying to butt in the scene. Lol...

Time out now...

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to one and all...

Been more then a month since I had last updated, frankly, been too busy to do anything about it.
Work --> lessons --> study --> DDR torney --> study --> work...
never ending cycle for me sigh...

Anyway, not much to complain about it, just that no time for Bemani games thats all, guess it all come to being an adult. You earn your keep, in the same time, you have to fufill certian responsibilities.
Was thinking through somethings, if I haven went OZ, I would not have left her, and will still be with her till now (?). Prob not. I don't like to think too much of the many mistakes I have done in the past.

Anyway, DDR tourney, thanks to Steven and Mich that came help and esp our 2 MCs Velvet and Vickie.
Congrats to the following winner
1. Ray
2. Edeson
3. David
4. Alvin
I must say, it has been a very close match, for the rest of the unmentioned. Workhard for next year tourney.

I am thinking of org a mini comp for IIDX, if so I will expect the winners to be something like this.
1. AYA and Shin tied for first place
3. Maybe tim3
4. Jerry
5. proly me if there is no one else.
6. tim3's lackys... but probably wun join if there is no autoscratch allowed ^9^
so on.... AND U DUN NEED A FEMALE CAT GROUP FOR IIDX whahahah
Dun make me mention that jerk's name. Even he joins, at most 5th. Wahahah. yeap, still see him no up :p

Long time no play, still stagnant at all pass for Gold hyper (except the 3 11s).... Argh!!!! Only passed 2 11s. One is 100%minimooG which is rather spastic only u need your fingers to move fast, the other one is FMAXX which is lucky I passed nia.
Whatever...Rarw...

XANTHE, where is my candycane!!!!

Wahhahaa...

END

Chem is dying -_-

I swear that with my current lifestyle, it will be just a matter of few more years before i see God lol.

Firstly, diet... OMFG... everyday outside food, no chance to eat at home and seldom got people cook for me.

Exercise, with my busy schedule of working and studies, where got time?? (got time for IIDX no time for exercises -_-)

Smoking... enough said


Hiaz~ anyway I got repetitive stress injury, and guess what... from playing too much iidx lol. Now my right hand is locked and very weak.
Went to pia under they sky last night... can AAA, but then my hand became weak after that lol... how to go zuah with the fellas??

Nothing interesting is happening to me these few days. Been playing Romance of 3 kingdoms XI, IIDX, Halo 3 etc...
What i need to do now is really sit down and plan my studies liow.

1. Pathology sub - 19th Dec
2. Practical work RDB, due soon
3. Presentation for MGBD - Christmas day + 1

May not look much, but you break them apart, u can span 2 pages of tasks with these.

Most will probably know, I am off competitvely from DDR and DM... I really got no time for gaming anymore. Even console game also rarely touch now.


First order for this weekend.
(Friday night) - Spruce up my room
(Sat) - arcade for iidx, dm or ddr... then home to study for pathology
(Sunday) - start revision for pathology (clotting, trauma etc...)
(sunday) - begin revision for MGBD
(Sunday) - Do somethiing...

(Sunday)... i realli need more sundays.

Oh yah... SOMEONE COME BACK DIN CONTACT ME.... U KNOW WHO U R!!!! :(

Happy Happy Chem

I am so dog-gone happy…
Did I get a mistress?? No……………
Did I go Geylang get a China chicken?? No……….
Did I go shopping again?? Hell no….

I went over to Bishan last night, and played IIDX and DM V4.
My accomplishment for last night is… (time to ego ego a bit)

Single play 7th Dan pass
Zenieth Extreme – pass with B
Pass a lot more Level 10 songs… except Waxing and Wanding which Jerry can pass but I can’t 
Hard clear my 3rd Level 10 song… forgotten what is it at the moment.
Almost pass (78%) my first 11… 100% mini moo or something on another. Its easy, except the end… from 100% went to 50+… WTH??

Went popular to buy CDs to burn distorted properly… KNN bought DVD+RW… CCB!!!! No use for that on PS2 lor -_-
Need to go over tonite again to buy…
2.60 per disc lor… total cost me around 11 dollars.

Dao’s PE is not here again, me and the guys have been waiting a damn long time lor…
Hopefully Monday will come and on Shin’s ORD date. Then he can zuah IIDX at home.
I am hopeful that he will be the first one to smash KaiDan.
Jerry is also upcoming and inspiring. Some of the songs he can pass I cannot. Damn, he suppressed me!!!! WTF?? Jerry!!!! I passed 7th dan… waiting for you to cross the damn Safari Jungle to clear it too!! Jia you!!!
Not jealous or anything, but I guess I haven been concentrating on IIDX till recently, previously I was just playing for fun for 3 – 5 yrs. I have a long foundation, but lazy to practice.
No more lo…. Need to concentrate a bit on it.
DMGF… I only play 12 times total… 400+ sp… shitty lor.
DDR… tried double venus that day, average grade of B nia… I think I go jump liow… lol

Halloween...OoooOoOoo

Wah kaoz, just come back from reservist kena some worm on my tag to disturb me. lol... Oh well, I am more than welcome any Bemani players to play at Lot 1. It doesn't belong to me, it is something created so that Bemani players can play cheaper, learn from each other and most importantly, have fun.
If this l'll worm is being a little sour about people having fun, well... too bad for him. (*brushes of curses from insult shield).

Anyway, I had just bought a old generation ipod nano at a cheap cheap rate of $138 ^_^ refurbished. My old 4G ipod has gone to heaven. Thanks for the company thru the lonely periods my old friend.
I tried to repair the HDD, but Toshiba (the HD manufacturer for ipod) quoted me 780 for a new HDD. WTH....

Reservist for the past 2 weeks has been quite eventful, but my unit is classified, so I cannot say much about the details pertaining to training. But its outfield after outfield, IPPT and lectures and bunking in bed and snacking on the pinic table with my section mates.
The unit estab is quite high, section commander (usually a 3SG) is now a LTA. Men are specialists and CPLs.
The unit we attended training was at Jurong Camp 2, ITI. Serving the best chicken chop in the officer's mess and fish and chips in the WOSE mess :p Beer is dirt cheap too... $1.20 per can.
I love my unit!!!!
Sad news though, my buddy in the section maybe suffering from brain tumour, I will pray for him to be safe, and kind souls, please pray as well.

These days instead of playing Bemani games, I been concentrating on Halo3, C&C3 and blue dragon. Fun....
Halloween is coming soon, might be planning to go down somewhere dressed up. Probably go DDR in a zombie costume, THAT WILL BE SO COOL... (Idea idea, hint hint).

A down side to 2 weeks of rest? (reservist) is the pain of piles of paperwork awaiting me. Sigh.... No time to do much things.
Hope the SgBemani group can forgive me for being such an inactive member for so long lol... But lan lan I have to work and study, as well as organize stuff which some people likes to complain about (You guys know which farker from the tag :P).

Finally I will be washing my hands off nebo events and leadership position will be going to Steven and Ray. I will just be there like someone say "act cool" :)
giving advises when needed and just to join in the fun.

I will be going genting soon with a very special girl, hope that time comes soon. I need a getaway from work and the forest lol.

I will also like to thank my friends for being so forgiving, and Michael for being there when I needed his assistance.

No, this is not a will, just like to express my thanks and show them they are appreciated.

New purchase

Wheee! I was so darn happy yesterday (Dun tell you, keep you guessing).
But at the same time I was disappointed too.

I bought a TV tuner box, specifically for my HDTV JUST to play IIDX, but the lag is still the same, no improvements. Tonight I will be going to SeowChoon to buy the VGA box, maybe it will work. I gonna make big investment just to play IIDX. Darn it.

Oh well, other than that, I got a new wallet and a new 360 game, blue dragon. (its not new, its just new to me).
I like it, RPG as I liked and remembered. Its 3 disc long ^_^… too bad I will be having reservist next week.

Oh well, that’s all for now.

Boring Blog

I been setting my ipod on repeat and been hearing “The Smile of You” over and over again. It brings me back to memories of your smile, the first thing that stuck me as having feelings for you. It is so long ago and still my heart yearns for that smile.

These few days been fast pacing through lotsa of IIDX songs, but now with 3 objectives in mind.

1. To AA or AAA previously passed songs with A grade below
2. To practice left handed play
3. To pass harder songs and to hard clear old songs

For objective 1, I had AA or AAA quite some songs too many till I had forgotten what are those. But my DJP has not went up, only one or two points more per song played.

Objective 2 has been going well, I will need a memory card to record left hand play records. I have obtained level 1 to 4 pass with ease, but from level 5 onward, just say I will need a lot more practice.

Object 3: pass harder songs… uhmmmm I haven pass much, I believe its due to my controller being too stiff, but then again, my right hand is injured, accuracy is there, but pain is there as well. Wait till it recovers then pia ba…

I won’t brag about anything here, as my accomplishments are going to “TRY” contend with overseas players, in the local scene, only Shin and Aya has caught my attention as a worthy opponent (and yes, they can trash me), Kel… haven see him play… no comments. Haven really seen anyone that can match up with them, but hoping forward to find more hidden dragons lol…

I am going to create more videos of IIDX esp with left hand to improve on my techniques and notice my flaws. TONITE, I am gonna to spam songs till I FC or AAA till my hands hurts (which it is now), and I gonna change to LH play.

I will be consolidating the orders of 3 Platinum Edition dj-Dao controllers. The best of its kinds (other than the real edition which cost 1.6K  I might get it in the future) Payment will be made this Friday, and hopefully it will come within 6 weeks of ordering. Sanwa buttons are not in production as yet, hence the delay.

Life is just so sad without much purpose, for a meaningful life, one must have much money lol…
Anyway life is fragile, to treasure to love and to live it, sadness, disappointments all comes in as a package deal. Bo bian…

Just read an article shared by C&R colleague at work, very interesting on animal behavior and zoonosis of disease.
http://magma.nationalgeographic.com/ngm/2007-10/infectious-animals/quammen-text.html

IIDX Training

I will be training for IIDX for now...
Instead of using my usual style, I will be using the 2P side, and practice exclusive on left hand.

Sigh...

I am Doctor House

This is me. ^_^

Fucking Pissed

I am pissed, sad, stressed, sianzed and disappointed

Pissed because my boss din give me the necessary information needed to settle a certian problem --> sad.
Pissed because some idiot thought they are so important and purposely gave me a hard time -_- --> Dulan
Disappointed because I know I am gonna fail my modules badly.
Stressed because of work, studies, exams, BGR, money, IIDX. blah....

Many times in life I just wish I can shrink myself to nano size and get eaten up by a ameoba. So tired of this existance of constantly worrying.
Stupid Bradford likes dissertation in their essay, FOR WHAT?? YOU FUCKING SHOW WHAT YOU READ BY IMPLICATING IT IN THE ESSAY AND NOT CITING DOWN THE FUCKING AUTHOR'S NAME. STUPID BRADFORD!!!!
I am so darn tired of this course... though its the final yr, its also a toughie...
Working now seems like going on day by day... nothing interesting ever crops up for me.

Sometimes I wish to totally give up on everything BAH BAH BAH.....

Wish I can just sleep and sleep after exams -_- BUT FUCKING P53 lab... ARGH...
So fast new school sem, I am not enjoying my holidays lor.

OMG OMG OMG.... Exam fever

First off, I will like to say its been a freaking long time since I have updated my blog. Luckily I have no fans, if not my contract to the blog will be nulled and void.

I have managed to get my IIDX Gold rip working on my PC (Yeah Me!!!)
BUT... there is still the problem of the controller which is not working well.
(PS2 --> USB port problem) so lan lan no choice but to experiment with different models of adapters.
Might be looking @ getting another JP controller next month, but probably will delay to save up ba.

Though I have fun playing with IIDX, on MRT sit on floow and plug in head phones, people thinks I am siow... tapping my keyboard so hard lol.

I have just finished my oral presentation and it sucks... lol suttered a lot and forgotten to talk about a lot of things. I am so gonna fail.
Better buck up for my exams... I need a good pass of 80% for 1st class honours.

I miss gaming.... oh well... live with it.

Things to do.

1. P53 Lab report --> SHIT ! NOT DONE YET
2. Study for exams (PRONTO)
3. Clean up room --> after the tv came in, my room has been messed up since.
4. Rearrange my room lol... I need a new position.

Its a rainy day and the sun will shine... eh eh....

Darn the rain, but apprently it reminded me of the songs "its a rainy day" a techno favourite I used to hear way back when I was 15/ 16 yrs old...
If you people wanna listen, so sorry, I dun have the link, but will post it once I get it up from my dusty collection.

Just reached in office lol... yesh i was late, but my l'll sis was kind enough to send me to a bus stop.

Yesterday's lab was a complete waste of time, how the hell can someone run a lab without doing anything?? -_-
Only dye loading... which is the simplest of all lor...

OK... lets list the work I have to do.

Study for exams.
GECC - 2 books
MGBD - 1 book

To complete ASAP:
1. Presentation MGBD - Discuss the relationship between estrogen and nitric oxide
2. Lab report on P53

Nebo stuff:
1. Saturday 8pm meeting with the guys
2. Sunday 2pm meeting at AMK Hub
3. Need to draft design on stuff and budgeting of competitions.
4. Raise issues regarding machine arrivals.

Haiz... will be darn busy lor.
Last nite also din have much motivation and begin to play games :P
Wish I can concentrate more...

IIDX cum NDP Marathon Session

Fantastic day...

Happy Birthday Singapore, and a fun night at my place for IIDX introduction session.
Members that attended, Bryant, Kenneth, Shin, Edeson, Ray, John, Jerry and of course me la... ^_^

Attempts to try IIDX leads to many hours of laughter, esp Bryant trying to Zuah vault of heaven lol. Finally in the morning, he managed to pass.
Behind the background of my mother playing mahjong, they still manage to have a good time gaming, drinking softdrinks and smoking lol.

Some pics...

After which, lent Bryant an old PS2 and controller for his practice... lol... get a few more people involved.

Anyway, for today, church and then went shopping...
Bought a 40 inch HD LCD TV... Wooot!!!






NICE....

Thats all for now... gotta to read my notes and do research for my presentation next week.
Seeya peeps

My past... Chapter 1

I was cleaning my room a bit last nite, and came upon a bunch of old photographs.

Thought about my past, and it seems so bitter and yet sweet at the same time.



How fast time passes us all by, nothing good can be brought all the way to the present, and bad things cannot be erased from our minds totally...



Gonna post some pics... behind each tells a piece about myself... and farking hell... how DID I GET SO FAT??!?!? lol....

Here goes... my secondary school days...

Sec 4: Was the interact club chairman, was practising a piece for my handing over on the piano, look so darn serious lol...

Another part of my life, a photo moment with someone I like, Michelle Tan, that was 10 years ago... I wonder how she is right now...

When I grow older... I went Australia, loved to track, do things... experience life... below are some of my Kodak moments...

And finally... when I go NS... these are photos of me during SISPEC ROC

I wonder what went wrong, why was the things I wanted not granted... it is life, it is fate...

Oh well... hope i can return to my past ^_^